yeah. today was my first practice wit the guys. i hate that i'm the only senior and i'm not even a player. it was good to start the season again, except for the whole sitting on my ass for two hours. it starts to hurt after awhile.
i lov the two hour delay. but i'm afraid next week will suck trying to get back on a regular schedule. except it'll still be lil crazy w/ all the seniors gone.
i've felt weird lately. i keep having flashbacks or weird feelings. i was remembering jakob yesterday and the times we hung out n stuff. and today i kept walking through the halls with a weird feeling--almost like i wasnt there and i was watching everything go on around me. scary feeling.
i felt bad today...cuz i havent really talked to cweezy in about a week. talked to his mom n sister, but thats about it. today he came up to me, and did the usual stuff, and i pushed him away, half jokingly, and he gave this look n for some reason, i thought about that look for awhile afterwards and its still kinda ingrained in my mind. makes me feel bad, just seeing that look, and then i kinda get over it...
vote low and pug!
**please pray for my grandma...oh and my aunt and uncle...all three will need it i think
peace~ | 
